you get what ask for

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 23:11:37 GMT

What Icons are for you?(Thank you for #1!! Please check out my other Memes!!) by ladyallie
Username
Favourite Colour
Sex
Your Love icon is...
Your Sad Icon is...
Your Happy Icon is...
Your Angry Icon is...
Your Food Icon is...
Your Animal Icon is...
Your Random Icon is...
Your Cartoon Icon is...
Your Sexy Icon is...

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word

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 03:43:38 GMT

My patience is wearing very thin at work. Some of the people i work with are getting to me, their lack of work ethic just bothers me, and the customers are like gettin nuts, goddammit, its not my fault you cant manage your own account, dont come cryin to me to fix your mistakes cuz its not gonna happen. Your a grown up now, learn how to fuckin bank. Jenny made a great suggestion, hire the suicide girls...how sweet would that be.......yeeeeah. anywho where was i..oh yeah, i get paid shit for the respponsibiltiy i have, i need more goddamn money, i mean im pullin my hair out over here, over my job, and the fact that every month is gonna be quite a struggle now. I just want to not struggle anymore, i wish i could figure out how not to

On top of that im just frustrated with my future, cuz i have no idea whats goin on, and wish i did. i just wish i had some inkling, so that i could be ready, i dunno, i guess ill just do my normal things, and go with the flow of things, and continue to worry myself sick.

anyway imust go to bed....

goodnight

Benjamin

well hello there

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 04:27:48 GMT

well its been awhile, i came, i saw but did not conquer. Where to start. Well i went to the doctor, and told him about my chest pains, and anxiety attacks. he thinks i just need to stop and smell the roses, whatever doc. My job has been hectic as usual, im gettin kinda frustrated cuz im gettin paid shit, so i dunno what im gonna do. Its like for all the shit i do and put up with, i should be making more money.
I got a new apartment, with two kids, its pretty sweet, and im pretty stoked.

The main thing though, is that me and jenny broke up. Apparently there were some that laughed when they heard this, and expected this from me, well fuck you. this is why im not friends with you any more you piece of shit. I hope you choke on that goddamn tongue that you cant keep behind your teeth.

I guess i thought i was happy enought withmyself to be in a relationship, but apparently i still have issues to sort out. I just wish that i could be at peace with my life. For some reason i think my life is not quite set. there is somethin in the makings, and i just wish i knew whats goin on. Cuz it kills me to be happy in a situation, and then after about 4 or 5 months, i just get bored, restless, and in a rut, even when i shouldnt be. Sometimes i feel everything is lost on me, cuz its not what im supposed to be doing.

I hope it all works out, cuz the way im going, im gonna have a heart attack at the age of 25..no joke, i cannot stop stressin out, or worrying,

Is there a reason for just random tears, and sleeplessness and restlessness at 1 am in the morning, for the past 3 days, i cant control my emotions, everything is just up and down, and im sounding like a psycho right now, so im gonna stop and go to bed........thanks for not reading this rant, or thanks for reading this rant, whatever and good night world

BENJAMIN

ummmm

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 14:34:43 GMT

not much goin on, bored at work. i bought some recording equipment, im gonna give a side business a shot, and record people for wicked cheap, cuz i suck. but we will see, ive been messin around with it, and ive been gettin some decent shit down.

well back to work, and a docs. appt. today, its been 3 years, thats gonna suck, (turn and cough)..shudders....

Later kids

BENJAMIN

yessssssssssssssssssss...im dating jessica alba

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 15:50:32 GMT

Your Life as a Celebrity by Karen_Walker
username
reason for being famous
plastic surgery you've had done
your tabloid scandal	rigged game show or reality show
your stalker	liarsbet
your best friend
your nemesis
the tabloids think you're dating
you're really dating
your secret lover
your bitter ex
how long you stay in the spotlight	a year

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one moment

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 03:33:37 GMT

what im about to say, i may get shit for, but im sorry its gotta be said.

Today i just found out that blink 182 broke up, im very sad about this, this actually sucks, i mean more power to living their lives, but im gonna miss their band ...they were such an influence on my life, i dunno ..but thats all

night
peeps

its 12:49 in the PM...im at work and bored

Tue, 15 Feb 2005 17:58:16 GMT

So its been a bit, nothin real big has happened accept for the fact that i am now debt free from guitar center, now i justneed to escape the clutches of debt of my parents, and 1 more credit card, and get my windsheild fixed, and ill be good.

Im sellin my bass amp..its an ampeg svt-3-pro. i would love 800 for it, but if you are interested we will talk. its brand new. Ive used it a total of 4 times, and just sits in its box...let me know

LOVE
BENJAMIN

word dog..a little post work boredom

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 22:45:24 GMT

1. What is your name? Benjamin
2. What color underwear are you wearing now? none
3. What are you listening to right now? the sounds of silence
4. What are the last 2 digits of your phone number? 14
5. What was the last thing you ate? taco dip last night watching the super bowl
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? blue
7. How is the weather right now? sunny, and nice and warm
8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Jenny
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? smile, eyes, ass
10. Favorite Food? steak
11. Favorite Drink? kool-aid
12. Favorite Alcoholic drink? mich light
13. Favorite place to shop? anywhere
14. Hair Color? brown
15. Eye Color? green
16. Do you wear contacts? yep
17. Top or bottom? ...what
18. Favorite Month? september
19. Favorite Fast Food? wendy's
20. Last Movie you Watched? City slickers 2
21. Favorite Day of the Year? september 29th
22. Are you too shy to ask someone out? sometimes, usually i get some balls though
23. Summer or Winter? summer..winter needs to die
24. Hugs or Kisses? both
25. Chocolate or vanilla? choclate
35. Who inspires you? a lot of people
36. Butter, Plain, or salted popcorn? butter and salt
38. Favorite Flower? gay
39. What do you say when you wake up in the A.M? i dont speak in the AM
40. Do you still talk to your best friend from middle school? no
41. What's on your desk? my computer
42. Rock Concert or Symphony? concert
43. Play or Opera? play
44. Have you ever fired a gun? no
45. Do you like to travel by plane?would like too
46. Right-handed or Left-handed? right handed
47. Smooth or Chunky Peanut Butter? smooth
48. How many pillows do you sleep with? 3
49. City and State you were born in? Philly, PA...city of brotherly love
50. Ever hitchhiked? no

your full name: Benjamin Steven Bailey
do you feel like your name fits you? yeah

where were you born? Philly,PA......why did you have to repeat this one

where do you live? Oneida, NY

do you like to travel? yep

what is your birthday? sept 29th

do you have siblings? a younger sis, a step bro, and step sis

do you have pets? 4 cats, and 1 dog

which was the happiest year of your life? 2005 currently

how old do you wish you were? 22
a movie is being made about your life. who would you cast to play yourself? John Cusak

who would you cast to play your significant other? Julia Roberts

how would this movie end? getting the girl of course

is it better to be famous or infamous? i dont reallly care

how long do you plan on living? forever

what was the last song you got stuck in your head? going away to college..b182

what is your favorite element on the periodic table? GAY

sunrise or sunset? both

introvert or extrovert? extrovert

creation or evolution? creation
action or reaction? action
unity or individuality? both are good
hugs or drugs? hugs....

animal, vegetable, or mineral? what do you mean

fight or flight? fight
who is your favourite historical figure? franklin d. roosevelt
which historical figure could we have done without? any assholes
you put a quarter into a toy machine. what comes out? a crappy toy ill just throw away
what do you want to be when you grow up?whatever...
what were your favorite childhood toys?Teenage mutant ninja turtles
what was your first pet? i cant remember

what annoys you? annoying people
how many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop? dont like them
the glass... half empty or half full? half full
what are your thoughts on Mc Donalds happy meals? sick
what are your thoughts on reality shows? sick
gummi bears or gummi worms? worms
would you rather sky dive or deep sea dive?sky dive
paper or plastic? paper
what position do you sleep in? i toss and turn

do you sleep on the left, right, or the middle of the bed? all over
sweet or sour? sweet and sour
what is your favorite word? word
beach or mountains? beach
do you have any nicknames? ben,bejammin, benji...
have you ever fainted? nah

have you ever had a crush on a school teacher? yes

do you have any bad habits? i pick my lip
if you could visit any time period, what would it be? the 1920s
what did you like to make believe as a child? i was a super hero
did you have an imaginary friend?nah
re-arrange some of the letters in your first, middle, and last name to form a description of yourself-too hard
do it fast or do it right? do it right
what was the last book you read? a brave new world
have you ever had surgery? no
if you could learn any foreign language, what would it be? ummm i dunno
if you had the choice to live forever, would you?no
if you had the choice to be the opposite sex for a day, would you? no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
fate? yes
God? yes
big foot? ha why not

soul mates? yes

aliens? yeah
angels?yeah

lochness monster? why not
heaven and hell?yea
the zodiac? i dunno

love at first sight? yes

karma? yeah

if you had any super power, what would it be? to make anything happen that i would want to

would you use your power for good or evil? good, and personal
what are your turn ons in the opposite sex? smile, eyes, hair, scent, dress, ass..legs
what are your turn offs in the opposite sex? anything other than what i listed
what was the best compliment ever given to you? i have amazing eyes
what is the worst trend of the present time? i dunno
you cant sleep. what do you do? not sleep
do you wear jewelry? nah
what is your favorite smell? girls perfume, and strippers, and gasoline
what was the best decade of the past century?80's
which is your favorite month of the year? september
do you smoke? no

do you drink? every once in a while
what was your favorite subject in school? lunch

what was your worst subject in school? english

if you had to give up one of your senses, what would it be? prolly taste

do you follow your head, your heart, or your crotch? depends on the situation, all get their say every once in awhile

do you truely know who you are? nah, but im gettin there

are you superstitious? kinda

are you sentimental? yeah

how many times a day do you eat? just twice usually
are you more of a main idea or detail type of person? a little of both

what is your favourite pie? hate pie

have you ever been close to death?kinda
do you like roller coasters? fuckin-A-right doggie
apples or oranges? both

are you hyperactive? nah

do you talk in your sleep? maybe
do you go to church? not very often

at what age do you think you will be married?i dunno

what was the name of your first boyfriend/girlfriend? kyle

what was the last movie you saw that made you cry? the phantom of the opera..i teared up but did not cry

what is your favourite curse word? fuck

do you have any birthmarks? i dunno

if you could visit anywhere in the US, where would it be? back to california

if you could be anywhere in the world right now, where would it be? lockport :p
do you wear glasses or contacts? contacts
how tall are you?5'10"
how tall would you like to be? i like my height
your current mood: beat from work

do you dress up for halloween? i did this year!
have you ever been in a car accident? nothin real bad
do you tend to date people younger or older than you? younger i guess
do your exes look alike? no
do your exes act alike? no
have you ever been in love? yes
what is your favorite kids movie? shrek
have you ever been on a blind date? nope
would you want to be cloned? nah
have you ever peed in public?no

are you an optimist or a pessimist? both..depends on the day

how did you find out that there was no santa claus? there is a santa clause asshole....
pancakes or waffles? waffles

are you on a diet? ha riiiight
do you always want what you cant have? nah

do you act stupid around someone you have a crush on? most of the time
have you ever been arrested? no

can you cook? yeah, im just to lazy too

do you think its wrong/weird if a girl asks a guy out? no
do you have any allergies? just cigarette smoke

ketchup or catsup? catsup

end this survey with a quote:
I feel that when I'm old I'll look at you and know The world was beautiful

have kissed someone... (*starred* if I have)
01. on the cheek.*
02. on the lips.*
03. on their hands or fingers.*
04. in my room.*
05. in their room.*
06. underwater.
07. of the opposite sex.*
08. younger than me.*
09. older than me.
010. with jet black hair.
011. with curly hair.*
012. with blonde hair & green eyes.
013. with flaming red hair.*
014. with straight hair.*
015. smaller/shorter than me.*
016. bigger/taller than me.
017. with a lip ring.*
018. who I had just met.
019. who was homosexual.
020. who I really did not want to kiss.*
021. on a holiday.*
022. who was going out with someone close to me.
023. who was my good friends brother/sister.
024. who has been/is in jail.
025. in a graveyard.
026. at a show/concert.*
027. at the beach.*
028. in a pool, Jacuzzi, some type of water.*
029. in an elevator.
030. with dyed hair.*
031. with a shaved head.
032. who was/is a good friend.*
033. who was/is in a band.
034. who has tattoos.*
035. who is a completely different race than me.
036. in the rain.
037. in another country besides where I was born.
038. with an accent.
039. with an STD.-I don't want to know.
040. on a boat.
041. in a car/taxi/bus.
042. on a plane.
043. at the circus/carnival.
044. Eskimo style.

Flippin sweet

Fri, 04 Feb 2005 12:46:45 GMT

Napoleon Dyanamite
(Please rate my quiz)

Which Napoleon Dynamite character are you?
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long time no see

Wed, 02 Feb 2005 01:47:02 GMT

yea its true..its been a while...ive just had no motivation to do anything......The head teller job is goin great, but its alot of work..its tiring man. But like i said i think im doin good..and get my own office, it rules, i get a computer and a desk, its sweeeeeet.

I did my taxes......800 bucks......booyaa...word to your mom..........thats gonna pay off my guitar center credit card..........finally......

Did i mention i have the most amazing girlfriend ever.......yeeeah......shes gonna come out and we are gonna go on a date......and see the phantom of the opera, even though ive already seen it.....she hasnt and wants to...so i figure what the hey ..why not.........its pretty amazing movie anyway. the story line is really moving......its fucking good, and the singers are just fucking incredible, especially the phantom, best voice in the whole movie.

Im such a fuckin grown up now.......ive come to the realization that the idea of being a musician professionally just doesnt make me excited the way it used to, i think ive kinda grown out of it...fucked up, but i have other dreams now, and other aspirations in life, ill never stop playing, but for a living, nah man, just doesnt make my boat float anymore

thats its for now

stay classy.....planet earth

thanks amanda hill

Wed, 19 Jan 2005 12:55:57 GMT

1) Your gender: male
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: straight
(3) Single?: no sir
(4) Want to be?: no sir
(5) Your birth day: 09/29/82
(6) Age you act: 22
(7) Age you wish you were: 22
(8) Your height: 5’10"
(9) The color of your eyes: green with gold flakes
(10) Happy with it?: yes sir
(11) The color of your hair: brownish
(12) Happy with it?: yes sir
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: right handed
(14) Your living arrangement?: living at home
(27) Your family: mom, dad,hannah,shannon, and scotty too hotty
(30) Piercings?: none
(31) Tattoos?: none
(32) Obsessions?: music,jeeps,and a woman
(35) Do you speak another language? no
(36) Have a favorite quote?: "this is my gift, this is my curse"
(37) Do you have a webpage?: livejournal, myspace
DEEP THOUGHTS
(38) Do you live in the moment?: um..i try to
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: yes
(40) Do you have any secrets?: yes
(41) Do you hate yourself?: no not so much anymore
(42) Do you like your handwriting?:yeah its not bad
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: oh yeah
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?: i have nice eyes,and a nice smile
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: die hard 4:assault on oneida
(46) What's your biggest fear?:the future, and what may or may not happen
(47) Can you sing: yes..it try
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: no
(49) Are you a loner?: not really
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: fuck yes
(52) Are you a daredevil?: umm....no
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: i kinda dont like my fear of taking risks
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?: pretty passive i would say
(55) Have you got in a fist fight?: no
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness?: my strength is..i dunno, my weakness is laziness, and lack of motivation
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself?:my body
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: i would prolly go for beauty
(59) How do you vent?: i let it well up till i explode
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: yeah
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: i regret nothing
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: yeah, its had its down points but its peakin up
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: chill the fuck out
(64) What do you like the most about your body?: i duno
(65) And least?: my body
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: i dunno, ive been told that
(67) Are you confident?:to an extent
(68) whos your favorite fictional character? right now its spider man
(69) Do people know how you feel?: no i dont think so
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?:maybe, sometimes people think im an arrogant prick
DO YOU
(71) Smoke?: no
(72) Do drugs?: no
(73) Read the newspaper?:only crossword puzzles, and comics
(74) Pray?: yea
(75) Go to church? nah
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: maybe
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals? no
(78) Take walks in the rain?: havent yet
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?:yeah
(80) Drive?: a beautiful jeep wrangler
(81) Like to drive fast?: yeah
HAVE YOU EVER
(82) Liked your voice?: yes
(83) Hurt yourself?: um not really
(84) Been out of the country?: canada,
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: nah
(86) Burped? damn straight
(87) Been unfaithful?:absolutely not, never have been, never will be
(88) Been in love?: yes
(89) Done drugs?: no
(90) Gone skinny dipping?: no
(92) Had a surgery?: no
(93) Ran away from home?: no
(94) Played strip poker: no
(95) Gotten beaten up?: yea
(97) Been picked on?: yea
(98) Been on stage?: yes,
(99) Been so drunk that you don’t remember what happened?: yea
(100) Slept outdoors?:yea
(101) Thought about suicide?: yea
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: yea
(103) If yes, what is your record?: like 30 hours
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: yea
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex? yea
(107) Slept all day?: sure
(108) Killed someone?: yea
(109) Made out with a stranger?: no
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: no
(111) Thought you're going crazy?: yea
(112) Kissed the same sex?: yeah....stupid spin the bottle
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: no
(114) Been betrayed? yes
(115) Had a dream that came true?: yea
(116) Broken the law?: yea
(117) Met a famous person?: yeah the last i think was pantera.
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: yea.
(146) Stolen anything?: no
(147) Been on radio/TV.?: umm....no
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?: yea
(149) Had a nervous breakdown?: just about
(150) Considered religious vocation?: no
(151) Pooped your pants?: no
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: when i was a kid
CLOTHES
(154) Shoe brand?: DVS, etnies
(155) Brand of clothing?: whatever
(156) Cologne/perfume?: velocity
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: shirt, tie, and a nice pair of slacks
(159) Wear hats?: caps mainly
(161) Wear make-up?: no
(162) Favorite place to shop?: where ever
(163) Favorite article of clothing?:my coheed hoodie, and alex hill shirts
(164) Are you trendy?: if ben is trendy, then yes..i am trendy
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school? yes
LOVE
(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: nope, not anymore
(183) Do you remember your first love?: yes
(184) Still love him/her?: no
(185) Do you consider love a mistake?: nah not anymore
(186) What do you find romantic?: candle light dinners, and small things like that
(187) Turn-on?: kissing of the neck, and massages
(188) Turn-off?: nothing really
(189) Do you base your judgment on looks alone: no, but thats what i look at first
(200) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: prolly not happenin
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"?: whatever
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: no
(203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: no
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: i would hope so
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?: they are romantic, and sexual beings, they are just so amazing
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: they are women, we cant forget...ha
(207) What's the last present someone gave you?: a journal........<3<3
(208) Do you consider your significant other hot?:yes
(209) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk?: just gawk and weird them out
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON
(210) That haunted you?: umm.....what
(211) You wanted to kill?: i dunno
(212) That you laughed at?: my dad
(213) That laughed at you?: lori..
(214) That turned you on?: jenny
(215) You went shopping with?: jenny
(216) That broke your heart?: hasnt happend yet
(217) To disappoint you?: me
(218) To ask you out?: umm..i duno
(219) To make you cry?: me
(220) To brighten up your day?: jenny
(221) That you thought about?: jenny
(222) You saw a movie with?: jenny
(223) You talked to on the phone?: jenny
(224) You talked to through IM?: aubrey
(225) You saw?: dad
(226) You lost?: umm..i dont leave any soldier behind
(227) You thought was completely insane?: me
(228) You wanted to be?: benjamin steven bailey
(229) You told off?: i dont do that type of thing usually
(230) You trusted?: my friends
(231) You turned down?: umm..this girl from caz..
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
(234) Smiled?: last night
(235) Laughed?: last night
(236) Cried?: grandmas funeral
(237) Bought something?: monday
(238) Danced?: that weekend in oneonta at the country rock inn
(239) Were sarcastic?: life in general
(240) hugged someone?: jenny before i left
(241) Talked to an ex?: a few weeks ago
(242) Watched your fave movie?: been a very long time
(243) Had a nightmare?: not in a long time
(245) Talked on the phone?: last night
(246) Listened to the radio?: dont, its all about cds
(247) Watched TV?: last night
(248) Went out?: sunday night, played darts
(249) Helped someone?: i help people every day with the money problems,
(250) Were mean?: sunday, i didnt feel good
(251) Sang?: yesterday
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: jesus, i think the incredibles....
(253) Said "I love you"?: ......
(254) Missed someone?: right now
(255) Fought with a family member?: we dont really do that
(256) Fought with a friend?: i dont really do that
(257) Had a serious conversation?:monday
(258) Got drunk?: halloween
(259) Had sex?:.....not yet

yesssssssssssss

Tue, 28 Dec 2004 19:26:49 GMT

Finally happy.............

even i knew this

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 02:01:33 GMT

You're Charlie Brown!

Which Peanuts Character is your Inner Child?
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one for me..and one for my homies

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 10:53:39 GMT

the funeral is thursday night, im feelin a bit better about things as far as that goes, alot better actually, ive stopped freaking out about it. So thats good i guess.

I dunno ..whatever...........

Its all about being alone these days i guess, i mean i would rather be happy and alone, than be miserable, with someone i dont want to be with. But im not happy and alone. I dunno i think its time i started takin my own advice........HAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......well see about that one.....

well i dont even know why im up so goddamn early but i think ill go back to bed.....

Forever yours,
Benjamin

what is my world made of ?

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 00:39:54 GMT

thank you

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 03:16:57 GMT

I just want to thank all you guys who have been there for me this past week, its been really rough, and my grandma just died litereally moments ago, its just too much. I just want to thank you guys for your support, i never asked for it, and youguys just gave it. Thank you from the bottom of my heart..

YOurs truly,

BENJAMIN

man this is gonna suck

Sat, 11 Dec 2004 17:55:45 GMT

So you may or may not know my great grandma died last weekend. We had the funeral tuesday. Well im sleepin and around 3 this morning, i hear the phone ring, and no one is picking up, so i go down, its my aunt and she sounds like just she just had been crying, She asked for dad, so i went upstairs, and they were gone, i was like what the fuck is going on. Turns out my grandmas heart rate was abnormally fast, they got it down, but i guess my dad and my aunts got together to decide what should be done, as far as keeping her alive. She is currently alive, but they dont think for much longer, I am not lookin forward to seein my dad after this, i hate to see him all torn up,

thanks for listenin internet

BEN

yeeah

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 01:42:11 GMT

keepin the ben bailey streak alive..................lets hear it for me

yeeah

Tue, 07 Dec 2004 02:43:14 GMT

I just want to be happy again, i dont want to feel so anxious all the time, i want to stop biting my lip, and making it bleed, i want to be healthy and feel good about myself, I AM SICK OF BEING THIS GODDAMN RESTLESS ALL THE GODDAMN TIME,

I WANT TO BE ABLE TO RELAX, THIS IS FUCKING PATHETIC THAT I CANT EVEN RELAX WITH OUT BEING NERVOUS, WHAT THE FUCK,

MY STOMACH IS ALWAYS IN KNOTS, MY SHOULDER WILL NOT STOP HURTING, MY LIP WONT STOP PEELING, AND MY MIND WONT CHILL THE FUCK OUT,

IVE GONE CRAZY I THINK

LATER,

CRAZY MAN

yeeeah mother fucker

Sun, 05 Dec 2004 14:58:29 GMT

You scored as Han Solo. You are Han Solo. Wise-cracking, money-loving, hardened spacedog. Or so you'd have us believe.

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Han Solo

65%

Luke Skywalker

50%

Lando Calrissian

35%

Princess Leia

30%

Chewbacca

25%

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word up

yo

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 21:23:38 GMT

yeah so i havent really done anything cuz i found out reporters read my journal, and post in the news paper. but there aint much goin on right now. i got pretty wasted last night, it was fun, a dude that comes into the bank bought me a shot, that was great.

This weekend is aubs birthday party, thats gonna be sweeeeeeet, i hope, well hit a pinata, and sing songs, and play beer pong

The next weekend is the company christmas party, filet mignon(sp?) and open bar.....sweeeeeeeeeeeet. But i will be attending alone, its gonna be weird, i hope not though. If anyone wants to go let me know..ha......jk

thats about it

Peace, love, and sex

BENJAMIN

friday

Thu, 11 Nov 2004 03:30:45 GMT

im need a drink friday night......if you can help me out..and want to drink with me...please do...........im really gonna need it after this......

yeah umm.....so......

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 03:22:12 GMT

Yeah so today i realized something. I literally have no friends to hang out with. It seems like if i want to hang out with a friend, i have to drive two hours in any direction. everyones off to school, or well just doesnt want to, i know people are busy, and what not i understand...it just sucks, i think that if i had friends to hang out with, my mood would be a bit more up, its just tough findin someone who has the same time free that i do. I figured once i got the normal hours i could hang out with people, turns out that was wrong, not to mention the fact there are a total of 2 people to hang out with in the city of oneida itself. AND NO...rochester shit heads..im not moving......ha......

there are no lighter notes to this one kids......

Truly yours,

BENJAMIN

where have all the cowboys gone

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 11:48:02 GMT

So like this weekend was ok, but could of been better, i got drunk friday night, and did nothin saturday. how the hell does this happen. It never seems that i can do anything two nights in a row, at least one of the days in the weekend will be spent sittin on my ass. Ah well thats life. But yea friday was great. We drank sang, hung out with girls, even though i didnt get any, and my cousin, and the dude that came with me did, mother fuckers. But thats the story of my life. Other than that we had fun. then saturday we had to celebrate scottie too hotties birthday, at least it was a free dinner from my parents at the olive garden. then i did nothin saturday night. then sunday .....the packers won.....enough said. this weekend is halloween hopefully ill be hittin up a few parties, well see though

gotta go to work......i like work

BENJAMIN

this is the best one yet

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 22:08:21 GMT

Love and Sex With Your Friends by dannygrl0129
Username
Sex
Favorite Color
Love of your life:	tweetyjc
Best sex of your life:	xihearturcarx
Will make you come 1000 times:	aubhookup
Will break your heart:	silentalibi
Best Kisser:	starlyte2742
Best cuddler:	__worst_is_over
You secretly dream of:	sympathyfromsun
But this person dreams of you:	callmemulan
Will handcuff you and screw you silly:	liarsbet

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